Weekend of Doubts

I did no training this weekend, nada, zipola. I honestly felt like crap. I was so tired but I couldn't sleep, I didn't have an appetite, it was a struggle to communicate with people, even milking the goats was a challenge. I started thinking negative thoughts, like I'll never be able to finish the Half Ironman. I just think I over did it last week between the cardio and weight training, I'm PMSing too. Do other women feel like their training suffers when pmsing?

My husband was great this weekend, helping me with the farm chores and fixing meals. I must have looked tired. I did feel better this morning and went for my 6am swim then weight trained my bi's, tri's and abs. I realized this weekend more training isn't always better. I have a 12 week training schedule that Charlie Storm http://www.fittobetriedbikes.com/ made for the Half Ironman race. Have I been following it? Well, sort of... but I like to add on more. I realized after my break down this weekend that if I don't follow a schedule, I may break down during the race and not finish. I would be devastated if I didn't finish. My reason for doing this Half is because I had Hodgkin's Lymphoma when I was 18-19 . After 16 chemo treatments, the doctors said I wouldn't be able to do endurance events due to heart and lung damage. Well, I am going to prove them wrong. I've got to stop being my own worst enemy though and swallow my pride so I can listen to others. " Many receive advice, only the wise profit from it. "

The weather has changed drastically from warm and windy Friday. It's gray and dreary outside. I'm going to experiment on making homemade energy bars and green pea soup. My stepson is home for the long weekend from the Marines, I enjoy cooking for the family. He rented a movie called Saw 2 last night. I was trying to have a recovery weekend and that movie was making my heart race, I could feel it. I lasted only a few min. then I decided I'd rather be calm and try to sleep. Glad I didn't have any nightmares!