Love Lost
Sorrowful animal cries have been heard around the farm the last few days. It's pretty depressing especially since I'm around more because I've started to taper. All I have been hearing lately is Duchess running up and down the pasture crying, "Mmmuuuuaaaahhhh! Mmmmmuuuaaahhh!" and the Peaboys screaming, "HELP!HELP!"
It all started on Friday morning before I left for the race. The two male Pea's were crying their heads off. I didn't hear the Peahen calling back. If you have never heard a Peacock before, you wouldn't un


On Sunday, I had to deliver twin, 5 month old billy goats to a family that wanted them for clearing brush. On the phone, they told me they had 6 acres fenced in and I thought this would be an ideal home. We loaded them up in the back of the Kia(a junk car we use for animal transportation)and bring them to their new home. Duchess, the powerhouse of my herd is their Mama. She always gives birth to big, healthy kids. Unfortunately, this year it was twins boys and they are getting horny. They had to leave the farm, I don't want any females goats bred right now. Duchess watched us load up her boys and cried and cried, "Muuuaaaaahhhh! Muuuaaaahhh!'
When we arrived, they had a small backyard fenced in with no shelter. The lady tells me that she's going to tie the boys out in the woods to clear the brush. I want to take them back home. My husband tries to tell me that this is better than selling them for meat. I don't know if I agree though. I think I'd rather have them killed quickly than have a hard life of suffering. I think about them being tied up. What happens if they get caught around a tree? What if they can't get to their water? What if a stray dog attacks them while they are tied up? The new owner paid me and I left with a heavy heart.
My heart felt like lead when I got home. Duchess has been searching the pasture and calling for her boys, "Muuuuuaaaahhhh! Muuuaaaaahhhhhh!" Certain times of the day are worse than others. Like, last night when I was outside grilling. She was pacing u

I wanted to call the twins' new owner and see if they are doing okay. I should wait a few days though. I know they are probably confused and miss their Mama too. Farming is more difficult than any race I've done so far. I feel so out of control some times. I know that nobody will care for the animals like I would. It makes me sad. True loss is only possible when you love something more than you love yourself.
3 Comments:
How heartbreaking!:( I don't understand when people often say that animals don't have feelings or feel love. That is total bullshit (excuse my language). I'm not familiar with farm animals, but I know that my cats definately have emotions. Hope your home settles down soon.
Poor peahen! Poor boys! Poor Mojo!
But GOOD FOR YOU for doing your tire change! It gets faster with practice, honest!!
What a heartbreaking weekend on the farm. At least the race went well, but still...I am so sorry!
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