I Have Learned Another Lesson

I'm sorry I have been so absent. I am not here today to tell a funny story. My heart is heavy. Someone that was very close in my life that I loved and thought of as a friend has betrayed me and hurt me deeply. I am shocked and confused.

Hateful and ugly words spewd from her mouth while she belittled me in front of an audience. I sat and listened. If I am proud of one thing, it is my self control. I did not stoop to that level, I did not reveal her inadequacies in front of others. When belittling me didn't break me down, she revealed a sacred secret. Hell, she even used a post in this blog against me.

The lesson I have learned is to not share so much of myself. I will not be so vulnerable and allow myself to get hurt this way again. I am ashamed and embarrassed I was played for such a fool.

To my once so called best friend, who loved me so much, I have a few parting quotes for you.

"Blowing out another's candle will not make yours shine brighter."

"It is human nature to hate him whom you have injured."

"The best revenge is a vow to never be like the one who hurt you."

"You may kill me with you hatefulness.
But still, like air, I rise."

Sorry for such a downer of a post. I will return soon with happy stories. I am thankful for triathlon training. Working out has helped me feel better during this difficult time. Don has even been coming to the gym and lifting weights with me to be encouraging. It's sometimes hard to choke down chicken breasts and protein shakes though. Tomorrow will be easier because I know that time will help heal my wound.

Happy, fun stories next time. I promise!